most of the time i feel like i'm suffocating in this small town. i have vertually nothing to do except watching tv, going for a walk/run, knitting, or talking on the phone, which is always ify do to touch and go cellular telephone service. i have no one within 100 miles who i can really talk to. there is nothing here that is breathing any life into me.
i get moments when i feel like i can breath. last night was one of those. the church intern in the area has started a young adult group. we get together about 2 times a month. sometimes we have bible study, sometimes we do an activity. it is a good time. we got together last night and had ice cream and played apples to apples. there were a couple new faces. there was lots of laughter. i felt like myself for the first time in a long time. it was so refreshing. i could feel the life returning to me.
so why not get together with one or more of these people more often? that would be because there really isn't anything for us to do. you can only sit and talk to someone new for so long. there are those periods of awkward silence. the times where you don't know what to say. when there isn't an activity to go along with getting to know someone it is hard and around here there isn't anything to do.
today, i'm still feeling good after getting to breath. it is only a matter of time before i start to suffocate again. it is a good thing i get to go visit the rents and my friend n this weekend... if the projected blizzard doesn't come as hard. i'll ramble about may blizzards another day.
Blizzards in May...[sigh]...I'm jealous. I believe we've spoken of these before, and how dull that small town of yours is (or was, I guess). I feel your pain. We've got a dollar theater and a mini-golf course in this town, and that's it. Like you said, you can only sit and talk so much. All that's left is to drink...
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